LiFe…

It is 2.55am, I’m still awake, of course, since I slept right after school (from 4pm till 8pm), and after a round of shopping spree in Servay Likas and a quick dinner at 10.30pm, I started off the tough journey of completing work again. Here I’d like to take this chance to apologise to my students for they-know-what-it is all about.

It’s not about the workload that I want to share about this morning, I just wanted to share this psalm written by King David (a king who was know as "a man after God’s own heart in 1 Samuel 13:14) to the leaders. It comforted me most when I felt like as though I couldn’t handle Mr. S.A.Tan’s temptations and my heart’s wicked desires just now.

Indeed what was being mentioned during Freedom Camp was true - the attacks of Mr. S.A.Tan come strongest right after the mountain top experience with God. Suddenly, I had hundred and one doubts about many things, especially my prayer life etc, and all my human relationships came to a full stop. Nobody I could find to even share a meal just now. Well, now I realised God had His reasons why I must be alone at that time. That was a time when I had to pray super duper hard to withstand this uncle S.A.Tan and his troops. Praise God! Because of His willingness to pick up pieces of me all the time, I praise and thank Him for His goodness and mercy and grace. And I pray that I will rise above the storms and will be patient to await what He wants me to do next about many stuffs. Praise and thank You, Lord God, for giving me so many second chances.

And hereby I present to you who reads my blog, PSALM 31

1 In you, O LORD, I have taken refuge;
       let me never be put to shame;
       deliver me in your righteousness.

2 Turn your ear to me,
       come quickly to my rescue;
       be my rock of refuge,
       a strong fortress to save me.

3 Since you are my rock and my fortress,
       for the sake of your name lead and guide me.

4 Free me from the trap that is set for me,
       for you are my refuge.

5 Into your hands I commit my spirit;
       redeem me, O LORD, the God of truth.

6 I hate those who cling to worthless idols;
       I trust in the LORD.

7 I will be glad and rejoice in your love,
       for you saw my affliction
       and knew the anguish of my soul.

8 You have not handed me over to the enemy
       but have set my feet in a spacious place.

9 Be merciful to me, O LORD, for I am in distress;
       my eyes grow weak with sorrow,
       my soul and my body with grief.

10 My life is consumed by anguish
       and my years by groaning;
       my strength fails because of my affliction, ^[a]
       and my bones grow weak.

11 Because of all my enemies,
       I am the utter contempt of my neighbors;
       I am a dread to my friends—
       those who see me on the street flee from me.

12 I am forgotten by them as though I were dead;
       I have become like broken pottery.

13 For I hear the slander of many;
       there is terror on every side;
       they conspire against me
       and plot to take my life.

14 But I trust in you, O LORD;
       I say, "You are my God."

15 My times are in your hands;
       deliver me from my enemies
       and from those who pursue me.

16 Let your face shine on your servant;
       save me in your unfailing love.

17 Let me not be put to shame, O LORD,
       for I have cried out to you;
       but let the wicked be put to shame
       and lie silent in the grave. ^[b]

18 Let their lying lips be silenced,
       for with pride and contempt
       they speak arrogantly against the righteous.

19 How great is your goodness,
       which you have stored up for those who fear you,
       which you bestow in the sight of men
       on those who take refuge in you.

20 In the shelter of your presence you hide them
       from the intrigues of men;
       in your dwelling you keep them safe
       from accusing tongues.

21 Praise be to the LORD,
       for he showed his wonderful love to me
       when I was in a besieged city.

22 In my alarm I said,
       "I am cut off from your sight!"
       Yet you heard my cry for mercy
       when I called to you for help.

23 Love the LORD, all his saints!
       The LORD preserves the faithful,
       but the proud he pays back in full.

24 Be strong and take heart,
       all you who hope in the LORD.

Time to go back to work. Dearest 4Ps, it is done! *Smile*

Let’s see, my last entry was two months ago… HUH?? TWO MONTHS AGO?!?!?!?!

Gosh… I guess I’ve been too occupied with so many other things that I had to let go of one of my past favourite past times - blogging. I used to love blogging - about weather, about people, about relationships, about idiots, about backstabbers, about gossipers, about unhappy events, everything that surrounded my life. Then I realised there’s such thing called STALKER. But this is not the topic of my day. I have a topic which is richer and more interesting than talking about this…

I want to share how wonderful God has been in my life, and how loving and amazing He has been in my life. He has given me more than I can ask for, though I had not been that "good" to Him (as in I still "ask for more" all the times)… He first had given me a job, but with the job came troubles. I’d say that lost friendships is just one of them. Yet at the same time, I do realise that we can not judge a book by its cover. A person who acts as though they are kind and compassionate might have an "evil twin" behind our backs. Not that I am asking you, who are reading my blog now, to beware of people around us, but I am just relating the possibility of people wearing layers and layers of masks (sounds like layered cake to me - food!!) in front of us all the time. The saddest part would be the layers of masks have caused people to forget who they truly are deep inside them.

Forget about the troubles of the past… Now that I have moved on to a new arena of life, I’ve put these memories as a chapter of my life in the past… And I thoroughly enjoying it!!! Yet, many times when I am exhausted I felt underpaid and overstressed… I always recover myself by returning to God’s embrace, to just remember it was by His Grace that I am where I am now. I took a very long time to discern whether I should take up this job or not, because it involves the future generation of leaders of the world. God confirmed again and again that this job IS the one He has chosen for me. I was so convicted that I said Yes and rejected a job which offered me an even higher pay that what I’m drawing now. What matters to me now is God and what He wants me to be. Guess what? I’m a teacher in Maktab Nasional, a private secondary school in KK.

What else I can praise God for? Haha!! My Saturdays off… It is tiring to work five consecutive days before I can have two full days off, but sometimes it is worth the sacrifice. Why? Because weekends are weekends? Not exactly… It is just that I can attend practically all the lifemasses… and the most interesting ones… I actually got myself enrolled to learn Latin Ballroom dance and also learning up shooting in Sabah Shooting Association (thanks to Walter and Denis). These are all very new things to me, but I really do enjoy all these… plus the companionship. Thanks!

Life has been interesting for me… Besides all these activities and also teaching… I also am serving… and Praise God for the perseverance. Amen!

This is the last entry using this PC which I had been using for a long time. Farewell to Optimax and its wonderful staffs. Thanks for all your kind assistance and help during my period here, especially manager Breinda, CCEs Beth and Jason, nurse Alisha, technical support Binggol, optometrists Colleen, Mr. Lee and Bakyah, our consultant ophthalmologist Dr. Yip, and other staffs of Optimax Malaysia. God Bless you all!

Ok, I know I shouldn’t be writing an entry at this moment, but it is already 6.43pm, we are all still in the office because it is treatment day, and me… I’m still printing the pricelists for the upcoming PC Fair road show… Just only finished translating the NV slides from English to Chinese. So pening since yesterday! Trying to translate word-by-word, in the end came up with such hilarious sentences that made Mr. Lee bingung when I tried to ask him whether correct or not. Anyway, this is NOT the point…

THE POINT IS this entry is a BIRTHDAY AFFIRMATION under the special (half-joking, but I want to make it real) request for uncle Denis, who just had a whole load of affirmations for his 9th (2+7) birthday during the Lifeline leaders’ belated celebration for him. Anyway, just to compensate for what I didn’t manage to say during my turn during the "affirmation round"… Maklumlah… I was so blur already last night because had to write on the cute cute doggy card we bought for Den before my turn of affirmation.

Anyway, let me put them in point forms for clearer picture. Haha! If I forgotten any mentioned, just add in yourself la, Den! So I write it as if I’m talking to him la… Senang ckit, no need think too much! Haha! Sot already with all the printing, cutting, translating stuffs~~

Dear Denis, my affirmations for you are as such:

1. You are a God-centred person, always putting God in the first place in things that you do. In your walk with God, though there are struggles, more often than not, you choose to listen and do His will and plans for your life. You have guided me even closer to God in my own walk with Him by our constant chats on this regularly-featured character - GOD Himself and how He improves our quality of life. How glad I am to know that God is always in our midst when we have our sharings! And praise God that He is the centre of your life.
2. You are a family man. I always observe how you put your family in the first priority after God, how much you care and love each of your family members, especially your super cute and macho ah gong. Haha! And this is indeed a major quality of a good husband. Do maintain this principle of your life so that when you finally get yourself into a life partnership, your wife shall very blessed.
3. You are a very patient man. Your tremendous capacity of patience sometimes irritates me, for practically nothing much can make you flare up. From you, I’m learning to be more patient with many things, though sometimes I still flare up without reason. Your patience made you able to keep quiet and listen to my heart’s "murmurs". How many times I might have bored you down with these murmurs?! I have no idea. But your patience plus your way of listening, it makes a difference in my life.
4. You are able to love the unlovely people (e.g. like me!). Thanks a lot for your capacity of agape love to place me as your friend in your life. Like what you taught me before, the love that all of us share is the love of God. And because of this love, we are all one in the Body of Christ. I admire your perseverance in your long-distance relationship, and the love that we see in you for your girlfriend. This loyal love you have for her makes me feel honoured to be a witness of God’s love in you. And thank you for not letting go despite the adversaries you face when you love the unlovely.
5. Your hope in God is also a point which I’d like to affirm you about. I’ve never seen a man who trusts God as much as you did. And it affirms me that trusting in God can truly transform a person. And my trust in God is stronger now than then. Not only hope in God that you potray, but in all things, hope and NOT expect. And I find you hoping so much for so many things. That is a technique I’ve yet to master.

May you always be a man who is after God’s own Heart, Den. Amen!

Alright, I still have a last slide to translate.. My eyes are blurry and getting teary and my head is half-pounding already. There are still so many more to affirm about you, but I think I’ll leave some for the years to come.

Signing off at 7.46pm 211107 - after printing & cutting 200 pieces of A5 size leaflets, translating the chinese version of NV.

Note: I
personally think that my career is at the edge with my
lack of knowledge of what marketing is all about. I spent some time
seeking around, browsing through to find out if there is any article
which can help me to improve, to be a better marketer, and this was the outcome of what I found and that I wish to share with all my friends who might happen to be a marketer themselves.
I personally would want to thank my boss for giving me such a golden opportunity
to improve myself.

Quoted from - http://sethgodin.typepad.com/seths_blog/2005/05/what_every_good.html

What Every Good Marketer Knows

It’s late… 1.14am… I know I should be sleeping right now, coz my eyes half-closed already, yet I want to share something just for a tiny moment here… I actually met with my friend, Wai Yong, who was staying in the same block with me during the whole two years plus of uni life… She’s back here in KK for a short hols and I was in Wisma Merdeka for Optimax Roadshow… And I saw here walking passed my booth…

We arranged to catch up, and truly truly I tell you, I caught up with many many latest updates of my block friends… Geez… Some even got married!! I missed my uni friends, and via friendster, I searched and view-profiled many and added them. I wonder if they still remember me???

To all my wonderful biotech coursemates… I MISS YOU LOTSSSSSSSSSSS!!! ^__^

I had a pretty well-written post but somehow it got deleted just like that… Rather sad, but because I’m too tired already, so I just want to post few pics of my past…

This is Song Hye jin (SSongs), my best-est friend cum lab member when I was in GIST, Gwangju, Korea… Just got an email from her… GOSH! I miss her lots…. We said to each other that we would meet again for sure… I don’t know how, but we will… I hope one day I can go and visit her again… I promised her I would attend her wedding ceremony if she gets married… Hehe!!!

This is Kwon Ho-keun… One of the cutest guys I’ve come to know during my stay in Korea… He’s like the kind of korean-drama guy who will sweep you off the feet with his gestures… Geez… super romantic when I thought of him… Hehe!!! I didn’t even know he was putting his hands on my shoulders when we took the pic together… ^____^ Yea, I have to admit that I had a major crush on him la… My last and recent conversation with him was yesterday evening… Yea, I gave him a surprised call… Oh well… I’m THAT unpredictable, really…. But I’m glad we talked. I miss him lots also… ^____^

Lab members of fourth floor of Life Science building of GIST… We attending Hwa-joong uppa’s wedding… The guy wearing gloves… First time I attended a foreign wedding… Geez… It was fun, looking back at my years before this… ^___^ There will be more to come… I know and I strongly believe that!

Ok… Time to zzz… To be continued in my next off day~~~ 15 August 2007@2349

YOU KNOW WHAT?

GOOD NEWS!!

*YAWN* ZZZZ TIME… HAHAHAHAHA!! SO VERY THE HAPPY…. LALALALALA!!!

^_____________________________^

Wanna know what happened on 30 July 2007???

Interesting…. Reception for Edna & Haris… ^__________^ There’s so much I wanna share but as the night grows older, sleepiness is replacing my energy… Tootootoo! My batery pack becomes "low bat" dy… Hehehe!!

Anyway, for sneak preview… Here’s a pic… Guess what these guys r trying 2 do ya?

Who is tht "big head" thr ya?? Hehehe!!! ^____^

1. Initiative & Proactiveness
2. Professionalism
3. Priorities-setting
4. Discipline
5. Self-control
6. Maturity level
7. Punctuality
8. Focus
9. Calmness
10. Adaptation to stress

Have to thank my beloved manager Breinda for these points given! Kekeke… Gosh!! Line of Coffee Bean Damai mmg la… Must sit at "VIP seat" baru boleh connect thru their server…grrr…grrr…grrr… nvm… I duduk ja… kasi kawan one guy yg sia nda kenal lagi tu… for the sake of the power point and the wifi connection~~ Hehehe!!! Sowie…nda jadi pigi ofis… Nanti mlm ada choir prektis di rumah dotty… Ahahahaha!!! Sot sudah sia… terbyk tidur~~